I was with him for six years, the 19th of Jan would’ve made 7 years. He’s been the love of my life since I was 17 years old and now I’m not even sure what to do. I’ve spent so much time trying to make us work that I don’t know who I am without him. He was more then the man I love he was my bestfriend who knew all my secrets, calmed me down when my anxiety started to get the best of me, the person who reminded me that I could achieve anything I put my mind to.

It’s been two months now since HE decided that me and him didn’t need to be together. He said that he needed time to figure out who he was and I was okay with that but little did I know he was trying to figure out who he was with somebody else. My heart hurts way more then I could imagine. He says that he knows he want to married and spend the rest of his life with me(I might even be pregnant right now but I’m scared to take the test) he still drives an hour away to come see me every other weekend which is making this breakup even harder. He’s not okay with me” sleeping/ being” with anybody else( not that I even want to), he calls every night and falls asleep with me but he doesn’t want to be with me. He says this girl doesn’t mean anything but if that was true he wouldn’t have ever given her the chance to even get close to him. I admit I could be a lot to handle sometimes but I loved the hell out of him. I’m not ready to give up on my relationship but I feel like I have to. I’m not sure where to even start. I’ve given this man so much of me and the messed up part of it is I just spent Christmas with his family and New Years as a happy couple. I’m feeling so lost right now and not sure what to do or how to get over him 😔