Baby no 3?

So when I was pregnant with my second daughter (now 8 months old) I said she was my last and didn’t want another one. As soon as I saw her face literally the second she was born I said never said never. I’ve been really considering no3. My pregnancies are never easy. My second being so hard I thought something bad was going to happen and my anxiety was through the roof.. I had bleeding twice and was admitted to hospital I had awful heart palpitations. I had bad SPD pain and all kinds of weird symptoms. Then my waters broke at 34 weeks she was breach so ended up having a c section at 34+2. She was fine and perfect but spent 5 days in Special care which was amazing for how early she was. Do I risk going through a difficult pregnancy again? I love my kids and just don’t see this being my last but do I go through all of that again potentially? Will I have another c section? Will I have all the symptoms again? Feeling really sad how quick they are both growing up and hate thinking she could be my last. Just don’t wanna put myself through that again and my kids and husband.