poop ptsd

so when i was at camp in middle school, i ate something bad i’m assuming and we had shared bathrooms and showers.

i had diarrhea and it just wouldn’t stop, trust me the sounds were probably the worst part. i kept farting and just liquids for a straight hour.

well every girl in my class made fun of me. they kept saying i smelled gross or called me fart whatever until i graduated high school.

so i can’t poop anywhere public, ever. i’m 27 years old and i will hold it. everytime i would pee at school everyone would ask if i’m gonna blow it up and i would be embarrassed.

my husband actually puts headphones on and goes downstairs while i poop or i’ll have anxiety and cry. thankfully he’ll do this for me, but how can i get over this?