I’m almost 8 weeks pp and I’ve dealt with anxiety since delivery, while I was manageable up until about a week ago it no longer is. I’ve been living in constant panic, I constantly think somethings wrong with me or my heart. I constantly think I might be going crazy and there’s nothing I can do about it. I’m alone a lot with the baby while my 3 1/2 year old is at school and boyfriend is at work. This has taken completely over my life this past week. I was fine until my mom came into town and then these thoughts started... I feel like I can’t get them to go away I’m in constant fear of if I’m going crazy. My aunt gave me some maximum strength CBD oil and I tried that yesterday evening and that helped. I wasn’t alone then though so I’m not sure if it had anything to do with actually being around people or it actually helping. I got a therapist last week, and I found a primary care dr who prescribed me 5mg of lexapro, but I’ve read side effects and horror stories of it making it worse so I’m now scared to take it because I’m scared the medicine will make me crazy too... or make me worse because I’m not sure I can get much worse. I’ve never had anxiety or panic this bad. I wake up and I’m already in an anxiety attack if not a full blown panic attack. I start back work next week, I’m a hair stylist and I keep thinking that will help being around people so don’t take the medicine... but I’m at the point that I’m suffering I can’t convince my mind that everything’s ok and that I’m fine.. do I continue the CBD or start the lexapro 5 mg.... I do have Ativan as needed, but I want to gain my life back and scared that this medicine will do the opposite....