Postpartum anxiety/constant panic

Hannah

I’m almost 8 weeks pp and I’ve dealt with anxiety since delivery, while I was manageable up until about a week ago it no longer is. I’ve been living in constant panic, I constantly think somethings wrong with me or my heart. I constantly think I might be going crazy and there’s nothing I can do about it. I’m alone a lot with the baby while my 3 1/2 year old is at school and boyfriend is at work. This has taken completely over my life this past week. I was fine until my mom came into town and then these thoughts started... I feel like I can’t get them to go away I’m in constant fear of if I’m going crazy. My aunt gave me some maximum strength CBD oil and I tried that yesterday evening and that helped. I wasn’t alone then though so I’m not sure if it had anything to do with actually being around people or it actually helping. I got a therapist last week, and I found a primary care dr who prescribed me 5mg of lexapro, but I’ve read side effects and horror stories of it making it worse so I’m now scared to take it because I’m scared the medicine will make me crazy too... or make me worse because I’m not sure I can get much worse. I’ve never had anxiety or panic this bad. I wake up and I’m already in an anxiety attack if not a full blown panic attack. I start back work next week, I’m a hair stylist and I keep thinking that will help being around people so don’t take the medicine... but I’m at the point that I’m suffering I can’t convince my mind that everything’s ok and that I’m fine.. do I continue the CBD or start the lexapro 5 mg.... I do have Ativan as needed, but I want to gain my life back and scared that this medicine will do the opposite....

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Sh

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This is what helps me... YOU are making your attack worse , you are the cure. You're having a rush of stress hormones that create the symptoms (racing hearts, pain in your chest) and by worrying about the symptoms more of the stress hormones are released...so until you can say wow, these are just symptoms from my stress , they can't hurt me, they have never hurt me, I've has tons of panic attacks and nothing bad has ever happened , until you can force yourself to believe that which may take practice the cycle will just continue. You are going into fight or flight, maybe it's genetic, or you have subconscious thoughts that put you there, but that fight or flight CAN NOT HURT YOU. It's made to save you during a real threat, it is not designed to hurt you. Go through the panic realizing these are just symptoms, they suck, but just say FUCK YOU anxiety you can't hurt me and you need to go away I'm stronger than you. Download PANIC SHUTDOWN on the app store, it's a great guide to listen to during a panic attack to put your mind where it should be and calm you.

Sh

Sh • Jan 11, 2020
Sure! I'm gonna add another comment with it. I know it's hard during, that's why this app helps me...and his voice is super comforting

Ha

Hannah • Jan 11, 2020
Thank you! I try to remember that but it’s harder to remember during the attack... I cannot find the app, can you post a picture of it?

Li

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I had very bad ppa after my daughter was born in aug 2018. It’s continued to get worse and worse until I finally broke and went to my dr in tears begging for help. I started 5mg of lexapro just after Christmas last year and slowly increased up to 20mg. I did take about a full 3 months to get everything balanced and back to normal but I can honestly tell you by April I was 100% back to myself!I really never thought I’d get there based on how I felt but I did. It was frustrating waiting for the meds to do there job, I also too Ativan as needed and used cbd which helped with my arthritis but didn’t find much help with the anxiety. My advice based on my personal experience.. give the meds a chance! They take time and it can be tough to get through but use the Ativan, go to therapy, meditate... stick to it! You will get there!Feel free to message me if you wanna talk, I swear I could’ve wrote this myself.

Ha

Hannah • Jan 11, 2020
Just messaged you!

Li

Liah • Jan 11, 2020
Yes! I was the same! I just accepted you!

Ha

Hannah • Jan 11, 2020
Tried to PM you, you have to accept it! I just have a good day sometimes... like right now I feel good.. so it makes me not want to take it

ki

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Girl this is me. I am 4 wks and my docs put me on Prozac and Ativan as well as emergency Xanax because mine or so bad I’ve had to go by ambulance now and been admitted twice. I’m also very scared of all meds and what they do mentally and having a need for them or becoming addicted and yes my panic attacks scare the shot out of my heart and I always think imma die. Multiple times a day like clock work now and sometimes the meds are not enough and I have to be put to sleep with a sleeping pill that again has no bad side effects and does not harm baby or me ( still pumping ) Spoke with 6 diff lactation specialists and l&d docs about breast milk and meds. Worst of the worst your baby could get colic. If you use Xanax ( I don’t anymore) prolonged use can cause addiction for them and you but that is just common sense. I down loaded apps that help me and I pray and mediate and the annoying thing about Prozac is it’s a happy pill so I laugh at Legit everything and can’t at all control my filter I also have sever adhd and mixing it with severe panic and anxiety caused me to have something Called manic - legit can’t sit still ever but now like times a hundred and can’t shut up or stop talking and nothing can hold my attention. So in order to not go back on adhd meds cuz I hate them. They slow me way down. Hubs got me an iPhone and some sound canceling head phones for panic and keeping my attention and place to put my racing thoughts down on paper is what the legit phone is for. As well as Apple Music, calming apps, baby pics and keeping track of meds, breast feeding and also when your in full blown panic the sound canceling head phones help me out but making me feel like I’m surrounded by water listing to calm water sounds or I have one that sounds like my shower cuz when I panic I jump in the shower and end up laying on the bottom for over an hour. ( think about that water bill multiple times a day and night) and we trips or invest in a phone and some legit head phones. As well as he made me a fort to go to when I’m scared and freaking out. Spend a lot of time in there. Calms me down and helps me go a but without meds.Mine is so severe I can’t gain weight and keep dropping and my body won’t stop vomiting out both ends it’s that anxious 😟

Sh

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Dare is another great app, I love the daily quotes...really helps keep me positive about the battles.

Sh

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It's the panic audios, 7th one down.

S

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Start the medicine. If symptoms get worse contact your dr ASAP. Hope things get better for you I suffer with anxiety and it compelty took over my first pregnancy. I know how your feeling love stay strong and keep your self and mind busy !

Ha

Hannah • Jan 11, 2020
Do you take it?

S

S • Jan 11, 2020
Around 2 weeks I would say

Ha

Hannah • Jan 11, 2020
I’m so scared to take it, how soon would I know if it was making things worse

🦭

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You start the medicine your doctor prescribed to you. And if you get worse, you contact your doctor immediately.