I'm not the bad guy.

How many of you cry every night? Thinking that it just a bad dream you wake up. Well wrong. I stuff from multiple things. Been in marriage for 5 years. Get blame for things i didn't do. I get hit and talk behind my back. Why did i put up with it? Cause i thought it would get better. But i was wrong. Only made me weak. I keep getting sick. I was dying slowly. One thing i did kept getting blame. Not getting pregnant. But i try and try. And i didn't get pregnant. I told him not to get fixes. He did, i felt lost. I cry every night wishing everything would get better. And you know what when it finally did. I was made bad guy leaving to be happy. So what i left. I want to be happy. Find someone to know im worth it. Be happy. Live a worry free life. No racism in a relationship. No im getting fixes. A women life is important. To grow with someone that means everything to a person choose they make together in life. No hold back just to make yourself happy. I'm sorry if people think im bad guy. But i got out of a marriage that was killing me slowly. I'm happy. Pregnant. And find someone that know im worth it.