Emotional

Idrk I’ve been feeling so alone and and feeling like people just are more annoying and aggravating. I hate when people do the simplest things and it just gets on my nerves. Then it’s like I just feel so alone and it’s really hard to describe how I feel to my friends so I don’t tell them, I’m starting to push all my friends away. I’m scared to talk to people especially my family, I just feel like they wouldn’t get it and think that there’s something wrong with me. I want to talk to my mom about this but ever since I was little it feels like I could never make her proud of me or make her happy. It is supper hard to open up to her so I’m always in my room and that gets her even more mad, she never really knows how I feel and I’ve been getting good at faking laughs/smiles, she says it’s all in my head when I tell her I’ve been having problems. I don’t have a therapist that I can talk to or anything so I keep it all inside. Does anyone have any advice for me?