Postpartum depression

First of I want to say I love my daughter to death, I would die if something happens to her. I’m 6 months postpartum, and I want to know if I had postpartum depression, I’m fine now and I feel like my old self.

But at the beginning when my daughter came home I would have thoughts of harming myself or my baby. I wouldn’t do it, but just thoughts. She was very colicky and would cry for hours on end. I had no help and my husband was working and would help as much as he could.

She’s doing way better now, and I feel great.

I’m just wondering because I would like another baby and am afraid that I will get those thoughts again and hurt either of my kids.