Miscarriage

Today I started my first miscarriage and I am extremely devastated. I was supposed to be 9 weeks along when I went to my doctors appointment on 01/03 and we were supposed to hear the heartbeat. No heartbeat and the ultrasound showed a gestational sac. We have been expecting this miscarriage but I feel so empty and lost. The bleeding is unbelievably heavy, I’ve been going through a pad every half an hour and I’m just mentally and physically so drained. I just feel like this topic is so taboo in other places and it’s hard not to be able to openly talk about how much I’m hurting and how hard this is. This is my first pregnancy and I felt such a connection to it, even if the baby was not developing. I’m just so sad, we want to try again but I’m so scared this will happen again.