FTM - overwhelmed, scared and missing answers

Hi, I did the 1hr glucose test just over a week ago and I never heard anything back so I assumed no news was good news.. until earlier this week when someone from the hospital called to schedule me in to the “information session” that was basically just to give me the pricking pack and told what I need to do with minimal questions answered... I am so overwhelmed because I have a ridiculously bad phobia for any kind of needle (I’m talking run away from doctors and have a panic attack kind :( !!! )

Has anyone else felt this scared and overwhelmed and been able to get through it ? I walked out of there confused and crying my eyes out. I was never spoken to prior to this group session for a diagnosis or offered a retest.

I’ve decided to not prick myself or do anything except focus on changing my diet and exercising more until I can speak to my doctor and get some clarity on my options and what this means etc..

I am feeling terribly guilty even thinking about refusing to prick myself multiple times a day and treatment but I’ve picked up the pricker multiple times in the last hour and I can’t bring myself to push the button. I’m a crying shaking mess right now and I feel like a horrible mother already :(

The lady did manage to prick me today and she said my level was in the optimum range and was really good and my growth scan showed that bub is not larger for her gestational age at all and is sitting in the middle of the “normal range”, I’m 28+4 today.

Did anyone demand a retest or simply refuse to prick and inject themselves and everything turned out okay with close monitoring of the baby with scans and occasional

Blood tests?

Sorry for rambling, my husbands working away and I’m an absolute guilty confused mess right now waiting for the midwife to call me back with answers :(