Why do we do it to ourselves

Barbi

I’ve had 5 miscarriages and I am currently 6w today. I’ve passed 3 of them because they were very early. I now need to make it passed 2 more before I can attempt to breath. Why do we do this? And even after passing all 5 there’s still getting through the first trimester and the testing because I’m ancient according to the fact that I’m not just pregnant I’m also “advanced maternal age”. I’m going nuts and the days are just dragging by. UGH!! 😩