Why am I heartless

I was in this toxic relationship and he always left town. Sometimes unexpectedly and quick. The times he was outta town we’d never talk. We had nothing posted about us. I did not feel like I was in a relationship.

He went away on vacation for two three weeks and he’s been there I think 4-5 days now. We haven’t spoke. I haven’t replied. He hasn’t tried to reach out to me and I haven’t tried to reach out to him. I deleted him off social media and he did the same , unfollowing each other, etc. I’m confused but I’m happy that it’s over for some reason. Even tho it ended like this.