Cleaning anxiety *a rant *

I don’t know if this is a thing but it’s what it feels like everything makes me feel dirty , we’re moving soon but me and my family (5 adults) and my baby live in a two bedroom apartment and only me and my mom really clean my fiancé will clean but it’s not all the time. I clean the kitchen and pick up peoples trash allllll day every day along with watching my baby while not at work, the bathroom is dirty im stepping on wet towels or someone has a mess on the toilet , I cook breakfast usually and dinner most of the time for everyone and idk I’m just tired of seeing dirty we’re out of dish soap so I haft to go get some. Like I get scared to touch everything I won’t eat or drink off anyone, and I was changing my baby and she peeed alllll over my side of the bed 😔 my day is idk lmao I know it’ll be okay and get better but man not feeling great I need some air but I’ll haft to wait for that.