So nervous

Oh my goodness. I’m so nervous. I saw this when I wiped today and I just can’t hold on to hope anymore. There wasn’t anymore than this though. I wiped again and there was nothing so idk. Im about 4 weeks now and have had so many miscarriages I can’t take another. I posted in the birth club (sept 2020) and some people said it was okay. Can y’all tell me what you think? I never had this with my two girls but I did with the miscarriages. Please tell me there’s hope! 😭😭