How does sex feel since baby?

Just wondering how sex is for you ladies. I had a small rip when my baby was born. Sex still feels uncomfortable and I'm afraid it will never feel the same again. I'm afraid to tell my SO or mom because they will think I'm just making excuses not to do it. But that's the reason I dont want to as much, because it still hurts and doesn't feel as good as before having the baby. I like other sexual activities but my SO isn't into them and my mom judges me big time for not having more sex with him. (We are more like besties and she knows everything)

I want more kids but I'm scared my sex life will disappear completely if we do. 😭😭😭