Movement ftm so weird

I get worried when I dont feel him move because I like to know he is ok but feeling him move is just so weird, I love when my husband gets to feel him and it's cool I know when he is moving but he is only going to get bigger and its making me have anxiety knowing these movements are only going to become stronger and he is only going to get bigger. Am I alone or am I just weird because I do and don't like the movements. I would rather hold my wiggly baby.