No positive outcome

I’m 19 weeks and was told my baby boy might have t13 he has a cleft palate and a a heart anomaly they were kinda pushing for me to terminate but I decided to give him a fighting chance they’re basically giving me no hope and think he might not survive the pregnancy I’ve cried so much and think I’ve finally accepted it and I just want to hold my baby for how ever long I have with him, has anybody experience something similar and how did you heal form it I feel so broken