Rather not test

Does anyone else just dread taking a test? You just feel like you already know the answer, trying month after month. It gets really hard, hard to stay positive and hard to listen to those that say “relax it’ll happen” because it happened for them and it’s easy for them to say. It just flat out gets frustrating. I wanna scream but I also wanna hold on to that little bit of hope and as soon as that test shows negative I lose all hope again. I pray for strength and patience to all those trying and in the same situation as me. Our time will come and oh when it does..🙌🏻❤️