I'm drained of everything.

My baby has done nothing but cry and whine for his almost 10 months of life. He is the most discontent child I've ever seen. This only happens when he is with me. My mom and husband say he is fine when they have him alone. He doesnt play. Ever. He has mountains of toys he hardly touches. I'm a SAHM and he expects to be held while I stand up 99 percent of the time hes awake. Otherwise he just whines constantly. I havent been able to leave him for more than 3 hours since he has been born because he stopped taking a bottle and I dont even have a sitter for that long anyway. I've probably left him for 3 hour stretches maybe 10 times in his life. I'm exhausted. It takes 10 tries at least to lay him down at naps. I'm feeling so drained. I thought life would be easier at this point but it feels like I have a newborn still. He is meeting milestones like crawling and pulling up, he just cries while he does it. I dont even want to be around him at this point which is awful. He is happier with anyone else. Idk what he expects from me but I clearly cant console him. I feel like everyone has all these cute pictures and moments with their baby and I barely get anything with him.