Finally strong enough. Bye.

2020 will be the year that I leave my fiance. I dont love him and I havent loved him quite some time.

For years I've put up with his constant lies, manipulative and abusive behavior. He lies so much, to the point I dont even bother calling him out on it anymore. He steals from me. I've tried for 2 years to put money away for a vacation with my mom. He takes my savings and doesnt even tell me or tells me what he spends it on. Its several thousand. Our finances are separate. Or at least that was the intention. He lies and says he doesnt have any money, forcing me to pay every single thing, to keep us fed and housed. - but he always has money to buy his daughter expensive toys and candy every single day. He does drugs daily, he has been physically abusive towards me, is verbally abusive and the past few months I figured out he is cheating. I'm done. I act like everything is fine atm, while I look for small apartments - just for me. I'm hiding my savings, he doesnt know and will not know where. I'm tired of being used. In a few months I will have enough saved to move out. The situation was the same with my ex and that time it took me 4 years and a lot of debt to leave. I refuse to let that happen again. Time to take care of myself and not enable another abusive liar. Fuck you and goodbye!