My family is more happy and excited than I am. It took me a while to tell them because of fear of judgment. I HATE that I fear judgment. I have this poor mindset that I just want to move away and be around people who don’t know me. Judgment from outside people won’t bother me, they’ll have a more positive outlook than people I know. I have 0 friends and have only hung out with my bf for like the last 2 years, he’s very loving and I’m happy with him. We just aren’t married and I grew up having these strict and Godly morals by the book (which I still believe in) but I fell short and was sexually active with me man. My parents are super strict but are super happy and see this as a blessing, (of course they would’ve wanted me to do things the way I was taught) but it just didn’t happen like that.

I just feel bad because I feel so guilty and sad that I feel this desire and dream ideal to keep my child to myself and out of ears of peers, due to fear of “oh she’s so young bla bla bla”

I’m 18 turn 19 in March. Due date is August 8th. I am an esthetician and just got my license. So I feel like I should be more content with the support and love from my man family, and job position. But I’m just not. I feel no attachment (I’m only 11 weeks) but still I feel more nervous on if I’m gonna be a strong parent or not. Strong parent, heck even strong woman. I feel I’ve been so weak the past couple years in my faith so I’m just lost now. I can’t think straight. I want to be positive because this is a beautiful thing, I just can’t help but to think of all the negatives ):

please send positive advice and support. NO NEGATIVE (I’m not stable enough obviously)