I have no one else (update)

So i have horrible depression. Nobody understands me and they all go off saying im crazy or other shit when i read into how ppl treat me. Recently roommate has been constantly down my throat about the dishes.... When i do them everyday (but they want it done immediately after dinner) they make slide comments and bang around if i dont do them when they want it done. Well on top of that im between jobs so i have stress of needing money rn. I live in a small town where getting a job is hard and keeping one is easy. And if i say anything thats on my mind depression wise they all say im crazy and it cant be that bad.

Its gotten to the point i feel like nobody wants me around. I dont belong anywhere. And maybe id be better off dead. Maybe i should just leave everything one day and let myself die. Ik i need help but i cant afford a counselor. And i have noone to talk to. Cant call anyone either as my phone is shut off til i can afford it again. My family wont listen and its left me all alone. Idk where else to turn to. I just need someone to maybe say something or talk to me. I feel all alone.

(Update) When i tried talking to my sister she tried saying everything pisses me off and im just being dramatic. When she wouldnt even listen. When im looking for help im being dramatic and looking for attention she says. Cuz i had a better life than her she said.

I promise im not looking for attention.