I try and try not to explode when people who dont want babies or are not even trying get pregnant. Jealously is not my thing but I find myself faking smiling at yet again another congratulations.

Does anyone else feel this way? I'm not saying I'm not happy for the.! Ofcourse I am but I find myself internally screaming 'why not me? What have I done?'

I am at work and just got a sonogram/ultrasound pic from my other half's 18year old niece who just found our shes 11weeks pregnant and I am at the verge of crying.