Feeling like a single mom

My husband works out of town, he's been out of town since September & will be out of town for the year. He only comes on weekends which feels like nothing because I sometimes work weekends and all we do is run errands.

since I was pregnant I felt lonely cause he always had to go out of town. My last month being pregnant I spent it along near the hospital because I was high risk, after I had my daughter I was alone for 4 months cause he would work nights.

Now she's 2 and I'm still feeling like I'm alone & damn it's exhausting! Lol whatever I try to clean, she wants to "help" and by help, I mean she ends up making a bigger mess. I always end up just stopping what I'm doing knowings she's not going to let me any ways & I clean after she goes to bed. I'm exhausted all the time & I'm kind of hating my job right now.

I really just need like a day.

I find my self crying a lot because my daughter can be too much with her tantrums. I swear she's the only kid on the block that throws loud ass tantrums. At home she's so well behaved. But I'm public she's horrible.

My husband thinks I have it sooo easy to work full time and still do everything else.

I told him that I'm going to start going to the gym and he's mad because he's worried about our daughter being left too long at the baby-sitters so I can go to the gym.

I want to go, because I have a heart problem and my doctors want me to lose 10/15lbs in 3mon.. I'm not supper over weight but I have to lose if I want to get pregnant again.