Just so heartbroken

My boyfriend and my have been together almost a year...We have had a pretty rocky relationship so far..He's never given me any reasons not to trust him he's so sweet and I honestly thought he was innocent because I am his first girlfriend.. Well I check his phone last night and I was shocked to see he had been looking up pornstars on his instagram which I knew he watched porn but to go out of your way to look up the people is just wrong...but what really hurt is this girl posted on snapchat 1,2,3,4

1 being kiss me,2 you wanna date me 3 you miss me

He sent her a 3 and she said "I miss you too" and he Didint respond..but what hurts the most is this is a very pretty girl that he was talking to even a month after we were dating he said "We can talk when you 18" & "its that but I actually also have a girlfriend rn" and she said "thanks for letting me know" and he just said "Yeah" (this was one month after we dated) I confronted him about it when he was sleeping very abruptly and told him he had to go hes like "I cant have female friends" and basically acted like I was in the wrong aparently because I woke him out of his sleep and he had to work at 4 am he was pissed and I basically had to beg him to work it out with me.

Today I asked him why he was being so mean to me and not letting me talk to him and he said "Idk,I was tired and I really didint wanna go to work tired"(work in construction) but like if you care enough for a relationship you dont just sleep...

Im so sad right now constantly thinking of all the wrong hes done..Ik so hurt I don't want to leave him cause I love him so much and genuinely feel he loves me too someone please help.

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Ro

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So in my relationship porn isn’t okay. I don’t like it and I would be hurt too. But maybe he doesn’t see it as a huge deal,. I’d try to talk to him about it and as for the snapchat thing maybe he said he misses her as a friend? I would ask about it. Me and my best friend almost dated once when we first got close because we had feelings but they were the wrong type of feelings and we still talk to this day even tho we’re both in relationship and he’s like family to me now and I always tell him I love him and miss him but we know it’s in a platonic way.

Se

Selma • Feb 1, 2020
Yeah I wouldint be as hurt if he wasint already flirting with this girl prior to our relationship..I just dont know what to think.

Lu

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I'm sure you posted this already?