Yeah you read that right.

So back story.... I have two children (5yrs, 2yrs). The relationship with their father has been a battle to say the least. Our second child way the result of me trying to fix the relationship. That was the last time I have been physical.

Since then I have all but lost my mojo. I have always chalked that up to just not being attracted to their father anymore from all the crap he put me through ( drugs, going Mia, not helping with the kids, not helping with expenses).

So about a week ago and old co worker hit me up. He's a few years younger. I had a huge crush on him when we worked together and I flirted with him but nothing ever came out of it. Anywho. So he messages me and we have been talking. We have similar stories as far as relationships and having a child.

We have both been single for a while but are still in the process of rediscovering who we are and talked about not wanting anything serious. But he stated that he wouldn't mind it progressing into something more over time. And that he wouldn't be talking to other people while we are talking.

Now to get good stuff lol.

He wants to hang out and we started talking about kinks and turn ons and I'm all for it. This is the first time in almost threw years I have been turned on and horny. And mind you this is over the phone. We haven't even see each other yet.

But there is the problem. I'm about 70 pounds heavier then when he saw me last 10 years ago. And I'm out of shape.... Or is it I am a shape? Lol jk. I haven't done anything in so long I'm terrified of messing up or doing something wrong.

After being with the same person for a while certain things become normal and it's not awkward. This is stating all over and I don't want to mess it up lol.

I need advice ladies. Should I talk to him about my insecurities? Any tips to get ready for my first date in 5 years? Should I go get waxed ? Haha help me out