Y’all so I think reality is finally hitting me fucking hard and I’m just so frustrated and exhausted and COMPLETELY lost. I graduated high school early this December and my parents basically forced me to go to college the following semester when I want to take a break to build up some money and just figure things out. Here I am 3 weeks in already failing two classes and not knowing what else to do. In high school I was a straight a and b student who never failed a class and exceeded at everything, but I can not for the life of me seem to succeed in my college classes and quite honestly I could care less. 3 out of 4 of my classes are online. My one lecture is at 5:15 right after I get off work at 5 and it’s beginners algebra. The professor said we didn’t have to come as long as we did our work online so that’s what I do for the most part. He gives shit notes and explanations that I don’t understand so to me there is no reason to attend. Only problem is that I work Monday through Friday 12-5 and have no time for school work. I wake up at 9 and get ready for the day. By 10 I’m working on my Spanish which takes an hour, most times longer because of our slow WiFi, so by 11, when I have to start getting ready for work, I will have only finished my daily spanish assignment if that. I have to leave for work at 11:30 because we live about 25 minutes from town and then I’m working until 5. I work at a law firm with an inconsiderate boss who doesn’t like when I ask for days off when I need them for school work. I am currently a courier, but after graduating high school I got a promotion as an admin assistant and was told they would start looking for a currier. It’s been a month now and they have still not found my replacement and I currently work as an admin assistant, courier, and reception cover daily for $10.25. By the time 5 comes I have dealt with their shit all day and ran around like a crazy person, so as you can imagine I don’t really want to come home and do schoolwork. Some days I do and others I just don’t give a shit anymore. I’m going to college to be a nurse but honestly an not real sure that’s what I still want to be, and I sure as hell don’t want to go to college anymore. I was thinking I may like the 8 month emt course better since it would lead to a certification in less time, but I know if I dropped my major my dad and step mom would be pissed, but they aren’t the ones busting their ass working and failing their classes. My step sister has been in college for three years now and is never expect to have a job or pay anything, yet here I am stressed out having mental breakdowns weekly and no one seems to care.