Abortion

I'm currently pregnant with a pregnancy I did not want I'm in a toxic and unhealthy marriage we have 4 kids together. I have made an appointment to go ahead and do the abortion next week. My ex husband has always left me during my other pregnancies and again this time I cannot raise another child alone. I'm the only one who works he doesnt help I'm depressed feeling suicidal due to being pregnant again. I couldnt get on birth control due to breast feeding my current baby. I know I'll get bashed for this but I just need to vent and for someone to understand me and not judge me for doing what's best for myself and my children here and now. I have always been against abortions but me being in my own shoes right now and everything going on I don't feel it is right.