Husband is giving me an ultimatum

Janelle

My husband and I have had a rocky last six months where we have both been disrespectful with our words. Lied about our commitment to make it work by always getting on that crazy train in arguments. I knew something was up with him when he. Started being obsessed with his phone. I caught on to him and accused him for 6 months of cheating on me. A week ago we had a big fight. Where it ended up him having to get bonded out of jail bc he scared me so much by yelling and hitting the door i called the police. We vowed to eachother we were going to stop this fighting. Wednesday, Thursday, Friday night he goes out with a friend and each time comes home smelling like a bottle. I tried to look past it..... Saturday he did the same thing but this time turned his phone off and didn’t show up until 1pm the next day. I had all of his things by the garage door. I told him he had to leave. He begged me not to make him leave and to just stop and work it out. He left. Last night he admitted he has slept with 3 other women talked to countless women on a dating website and made out with a few too. I found out the day he left I am pregnant. He is begging me to get an abortion to save our marriage. He is claiming that we cannot being a child into this. Which i agree. I want to have our baby, and work on ourselves even if it means being separated for now. He sees it as if I have the baby he has to cut all ties. If i have an abortion we can work on our marriage. Part of me feels like he feels out of control of the situation. It’s of course not the ideal timing. We come from a religious background that does not permit this at all. I know I cannot have an abortion I prayed to God for this baby. I am torn. I want peace. Advice.....I want to almost go to the clinic make him think I took the pill and then don’t take it and still keep the bay. Then again how pathetic!