Any young moms that are struggling to accept this? I’m 20 and pregnant, I go through these waves where I want this baby but its just so hard to accept because I’m single and I wanted so much different for my first baby. I feel like I ruined my year 21, I had plans for a 21st birthday trip and new job as a flight attendant and I just threw all that out the window with ONE oops. I know life has curve balls but I just can’t accept this. I try to look at baby items and clothes to make me feel better but it just scares the shit out of me. I’m going on 9 weeks, known for over a month and I still struggle everyday. I think about how the baby would be better off being adopted with a 2 parent house hold with stable loving parents that want a baby so bad. I find myself on adoption pages daily browsing adoptive parents. Even worse I think about abortion sometimes. My mom is begging me to keep the baby because she knows I have pcos and this is a miracle (also very conservative) she wants me to see my doctor to see if I have anxiety or If I’m depressed. I struggle to eat, shower, and to even get out my bed for work. I read all of y’alls stories and feel so guilty for even having these thoughts, so many woman on my sept 2020 having miscarriages and here I am healthy as can be. I just wish I can let you have this miracle. I feel very alone because my mom just gets upset when I express my feelings about don’t knowing if I want to keep the baby, I feel that my bestfriend that just had a baby a month ago will judge me and not understand because we’re the same age and she’s doing it. Everyone else I talk to about my situation just says “yeah have an abortion” as if it’s just that easy. Sorry for the long vent I just don’t know what to do.