My story starts when I was 5 years old,my aunt on my mom's dad's side (who I later found out was not my aunt because her father was not my mom's real father) was 19 years old and her parents both passed away so she and her 2 brothers moved in with my babysitters (both long time friends of the family).

Mel (not her real name but I dont want to call her my aunt this whole story) became very close to my siblings and I,she was like one of the kids,but we had a bigger bond because I was just a very clingy child.

At the age of 6 in December,her and I were playing doctor because she had a headache and I kissed her to "help her feel better" and I did other things that I shouldn't go in too much detail about (I was a oddly sexual child,I have recently figured out why which will be explained later).

Mel and I became what she called "boyfriend and girlfriend",and we did things "boyfriend's and girlfriend's" would do.

At 7 years old I had many crushes and like a "normal" girl I wrote them down in a diary Mel had bought me and hid it but obviously I wasn't good at hiding objects and Mel found it,that's when she started to physically abuse me.

The abuse became more frequent through the years because she started working at my elementary school,so I was never able to hide my crushes from her and she would beat me with brushes for "cheating" on her until I apologized.

At age 11,I finally understood what "bad touch and good touch" meant and I tried to distance myself from her but that never worked because she would force me into her room when nobody was looking or everybody was asleep.

In December at the age of 11,I got my first phone and became obsessed with wattpad,which helped me a lot because I became really depressed around that time.

At age 12 I was suicidal and cutting because of the trauma I have been going through for almost 6 years,I became friends with this person named Bluepink on Wattpad,he was "psychic" and knew everything about me,we talked for months and then he introduced me to his cousin named Bluewolf who he confessed was the "real psychic".

Bluewolf would always talk to me about Mel and whenever her and I "argued",Bluewolf would tell me if I loved her I would apologize.

Long story short my mom found out about Bluepink and did deep digging and found out Bluepink was Mel and then soon found out about Bluewolf (by digging through my email) and questioned me about their text messages.

After hours of struggling to get the words out I finally to my mom what has been going on for years and she quickly reported it to the police and my babysitter (Mel was locked out by my babysitter that same day even though the police told her it was Illegal to convict Mel without notice)

The investigation/court cases went on for almost 5 months and Mel was sentenced with 20 years

It took me almost 4 years to finally start healing and stop blaming myself

Through therapy I also learned that the reason I was so sexual as such a young age was because I was molested at the age of 3 but I barely remember it all.

Sadly my story didnt end with Mel,it ends with a boy I've had a crush on for years.

Almost 2 years ago at the age of 14 (he was 17),him and I had sexual relations a few times and I tried to end it because I was in a relationship that was getting pretty serious (I know a 14 year old in a serious relationship sounds crazy but it terms it was serious and still is 2 years later). I thought he understood we were just friends now and we agreed to hang out after school.

We went down by the water and just talked,he looked at me and said I want to show you something and I followed him under the docks (I know that sounds so dumb but that was the whole point,I never did anything dumb and I wanted to be a "normal" rebellious teenager for once).

We talked under there for hours and it was starting to get dark and I told him we should get going because he was on probation and needed to be home soon and if I came home late,my mom would flip and she could find out I was out with him when I wasn't supposed to be (my mom hated him).

When I when to jump down from the ledge type plank I was on, he blocked me and told me I had to give him a kiss first and I obviously said no because I made it clear I wanted nothing more than a friendship and I knew if I kissed him,I would gain those feelings for him back.

But he wouldnt let me go and I couldnt push past him because he was just too strong so I gave him the kiss he wanted and it felt amazing but then he started touching me all over and i just froze because I knew there was no way to get away from him and he raped me.

It took be 2 weeks to get the feeling of sickness to go away,I had to bury the memories because I felt like I betrayed my boyfriend.

A year later the memories came back and I told my mom,she left it up to me if I wanted to report it or not,a few months later I met another girl he raped and I knew I had to report it because I wasnt going to let him get away with hurting me and many others.

January of this year he was sentenced with 6 years.

It has been hard healing from the trauma caused by him an the trauma caused by Mel,on top of trying to finish highschool but I have a huge support system that consists my mom,my big sister,my boyfriend,my best friends,my support group and my LGBTQ+ group.

Thanks for reading my story