Let me start by saying-I’m still not sure if I am or not-but the feeling of “maybe” has me sick to my stomach.

I have a 7 month old and my husband and I had no I tensions of having another before our little one was walking, talking, and potty trained 😂 I have had issues with ovarian cysts and bleeding postpartum and have recently undergone a couple med adjustments with my birth control, endo control!

We have been very careful, taking medications, using condoms, etc...because we understand how this all works.

However, in the heat of a moment a couple weeks ago during one of few baby free evenings-no protection was used. And I was only 4 days on the new pill after taking a week long break.

I know it only takes once-I’m not asking if it’s Possible to get pregnant-I know full well it is.

I’m 2 days away from my expected period according to glow, but 1 day late according to my own records that I keep. Test came back negative, but still have that inkling of doubt.

I had mid cycle spotting for one day about 9 DPO and nothing ever since. My boobs starting leaking milky fluid-but I haven’t been breastfeeding for over 4 months-like completely dry for 4 months. And I also started with weird discharge. I could very well be seeing things where there isn’t anything to be seen.

If I am pregnant-I will of course be thankful for the blessing-but can’t help feeling scared out of my mind.

Encouragement or personal stories are welcome while I wait for AF to hopefully show up 😢