You know, it’s really hard having to keep yourself together most days when everything just seems like it’s falling apart.

I’ve been trying so hard to be positive and see the better side of things, but everyday seems like a challenge. Almost everyday my boyfriend put me down or tells me hurtful things. Everyday I’m the only one taking care of our son besides my aunt who watches him while I’m a work. Everyday I’m in pain bc I’m 39 weeks pregnant trying to get things together for our daughters arrival. Everyday, I’m cleaning something up. Everyday, I wake up early to make my boyfriend lunch and get our son ready to take him to my aunts, while he lays in bed until the last minutes to leave for work. Everyday, I don’t get talked to, asked how I’m feeling or how my day was.

When do I get a break? Never. Actually, maybe two hours a day while I’m on break or when I go to sleep.

I ask my boyfriend to do things or help me with something, I get ignored.

The night he asked me to marry him, we went to a nice dinner then went to the casino for a little fun. After we got home he then left me alone and went to hangout with his friend.. and had the never to ask me when I was going to post about being engaged.. i ended up posting about it that night.. but like why would I want to? You couldn’t even spend the rest of the night with me.. you left me alone.

But what else is new? That’s my life. I always feel alone. I have no one to talk to.. no friends. I get blamed for old shit I’ve done in my past constantly. I get told I’m a nobody.

I’m just so tired. Tired of crying. Tired of the threats. Tired of being treated like shit constantly.

I lost my mom to cancer a few years ago and my life has just been shit since. Nothing has gone right. It just seems like it’s one thing after another..

I just want to be happy.. it’s been a while. 😣