I just need to vent in a space where I can be honest without the repercussions of doing so. Lately I’ve just felt so, Gloom? Idk if that’s the word to use but almost numb in a sense. I don’t want to talk to anyone I know about it bc I feel like people are getting tired of me even though I don’t talk about my feelings much. Idk. I’m just in a weird place where all I do is joke about my mental health but it’s in shambles. Idk how to cope with this, idk how to get people to understand that I’m not okay and it’s not dramatics, idk what to do but I know I’m not okay and I feel hopeless. I just feel unsatisfied with life and like I’m just going through the motions. I just want to be okay but idk what to do to get there or how I got so far from being okay.