So , backstory. Me and my fiance are 20. Our first who is 10 months was unplanned and i had her at 19 and she’s a very high energy baby, i was very excited with her my entire pregnancy and always worried about every little thing...

We decided to have our children close in age so we started TTC #2 Last month and i fell pregnant. I was so excited about OPK and BBT tracking and then after negatives i got both Type A AND Type B flu, back to back (which i barley ever get sick ) so in the middle of being miserable i got a BFP ! Was shocked for it to happen the first month so i thought for sure i wouldn’t be pregnant.

(Also , as some like to wonder, we have our own home, cars and we are financially comfortable, so that’s not an issue )

I am now 5 weeks 2 days and honestly, i had a mental break down yesterday.

I feel so guilty and scared..

I’m not really all that excited.. i keep forgetting that I’m pregnant (and by that i mean , I will cry at nothing and then think “oh yeah I’m pregnant” .

I am afraid of how I’ll handle gaining weight as I gained 49 pounds with my first and only lost 20 lbs of it... I’m terrified of gaining too much again..

I’m afraid of getting PPD again.. and I’m scared i won’t be able to divide my attention between my babies..

Sometimes i regret it and i hate that because i loved being pregnant with my first.. and it makes me feel bad for this baby.. but i know i love the baby in me all at that same time.

I just want to be the best mom i can be, any advice would be amazing..

Is it normal to feel this way ??

It’s hard to trust my emotions when pregnant cause I’m a basket case when pregnant 🙄

Any tips on how to handle 2 under 2?