My period was 4 days late and I got all excited. I thought I was pregnant days 1-3 then yesterday I was in excruciating pain on my right side of my back all the way to the front. I did blood and urine work to see what it could possibly be. There were big chances that I could be pregnant and I thought that’s what they were going to tell me. I really thought they’d tell me I was pregnant and the pain was just kidney stones or something to do with my kidneys. They finally came back to my room 7 hours later to tell me they don’t know what caused the pain and I’m not pregnant...

I feel like I’m not destined to have a family of my own. It hurts me to my core thinking that I’m always going to be the nanny and not the mom... Don’t get me wrong, I love these kids I nanny with everything I am, I just want someone to call me mommy, you know?