Hey everyone,

Sorry for the TMI. So I have been debating whether to speak of this or not and basically ignoring this. I feel really shitty about it. Im too scared to talk to the doctors about it and also when they guys were condoms it casues friction during sex I feel I could have gotten stds, cause I bleed everytime. I was with one guy and he told me to chill out and I let myself go but he did something I wasn’t expecting and I tensed up. I feel I have a low libido and it’s affecting my sex life. Everytime I have sex it hurts and I mean I don’t feel aroused for it but at the same time I want to have sex. I thought maybe this could be in regards to how I look at my body. I have lot of body issues and I don’t really enjoy my body but I’m starting to love myself and I love my body and many people have said I have nice body. This is leading me to hate sex and I feel abnormal and everyone i talk to has said it’s nice and it can be sore if they are rough. I have been having sex for 2 years, so I should be loosened up? Yet I’m still tight and it feels like I’m losing my virginity all over again. Also not enjoying sex has made me not interested in it and I would prefer to cuddle or just lie and chat and find masturbating a lot easier. I feel like there’s something broken in me but when I have a dry spell it’s like something has woken inside and I come horny but when it comes to push and shove it’s still sore when we have sex. I wanna enjoy sex. Some of the guys are really rough or don’t take time. I feel so silly for posing this but no negativity. Not asking for trolls or bad commenting. Just wanted to explain myself.

As well I use to get anxious as well but I’m learning to control that and I’m not as bad.

I have also used a lube but irritated me.