I am 32 years old and 13 weeks pregnant with baby number 4. I have 3 boys who are my heart. This time around I was really hoping for a girl and so was my fiance'. We had been trying to conceive for over 2 years and it finally happened. I was anxious to find out the gender so I went to the local Sneak Peek clinic. I was on pins and needles the whole 2 days. Only to find out....Im having another boy!! As much as I want to be happy, in my heart I'm not. Im getting older and I don't want to keep having kids only to be disappointed and never get the daughter that I always wanted. I could do nothing but cry once I got the email. I have no desire to baby shop, I don't wanna do maternity pictures, I don't want a baby shower, I just wanna have this baby and be done. I already struggle with depression and I feel like this will be another trigger. Help me!!!!