TMI ahead

So this might be TMI but I need to know. Do PP poops ever get better?! Wednesday I’ll be 6 weeks PP and I’d rather give birth again than to have to poop. I know I have hemorrhoids but I honestly think I may have anal fissures. I’ve taken stool softeners and even that doesn’t help it to not hurt. Tucks pads doesn’t relieve the pain afterward. It’s so bad after that it hurts to even lay in bed. This can’t be normal. I’m going to mention this to my doctor at my appointment Wednesday. I just need hope that this isn’t my life now😓