I know we have been through a rough time. I know we have been damaged. I know that we have experienced loss and pain. I know that you have been hurt. I thank you every day for granting us our beautiful rainbow baby after so many losses, so much pain, and after your damage nearly caused the end of me. I will never forget when I bleed out and woke up to find out that we may never be able to have more babies. All from a birth control I was told by several, not one but several doctors was safe. I am sorry I did that to you. And thank you for after so many losses, granting us out rainbow baby. We love her. But she is almost 2. Please let my cycle return to normal. We are so thankful, but each time my period is late or doesn’t show up, it just reminds me of all the chemical pregnancies and miscarriages we experienced along the way. Every month is stressful, and even though we are not actively trying, each month that comes and my period is weird, or extra light, or just decides doesn’t feel like showing up that month, it just reminds me of all the pain we went though. Please, even if you do not bless us with any more children, please return to normal so I am not continuously reminded of some of the worst times of our lives. It doesn’t get easier once you get through it.