The closer I get to the court date, the more nervous I get... I’m scared I’m a failure, I’m scared I’ll loose my child & I’m scared I’m not a good mother for my child....

I’m leaving him for various reasons and one of them is religion. I live in a country where religion is a daily priority, so in order to marry the person I had to convert myself into his religion whether I like it or not. I had no choice to marry him. If I didn’t marry him me and our child wouldn’t be able to live in the country. I wasn’t able to go back to where I’m from due to financial reasons, I’m actually half/half so I have the right to live where I am now because of my mother who is from here, but then I’m still a stranger to everyone...

It got out of hand... they are too much, religious-wise the whole family, and I can’t take it anymore 😔 I’m actually non-religious. Everything went too fast, I didn’t think earlier... I feel like it’s all my fault and I have failed everyone...

He was on the other hand also not nice to me, he didn’t hit me physically, but constantly with negative words that makes me feel like a failure. He said many things to make me feel down, the one that is hurting the most was “look at our child she’s getting skinny, you don’t take care of her!” While everyday I would cook, clean, feed & bath my child... Then in the end he says “you’re an ok mom now than before”. Ok thank you! 😞 and there are so many other things, but it hurts when I think about it 💔