I used to be 100 lbs, I would kinda starve myself without even realizing it. I loved the way my body looked and in 2 years I’ve gained 30 pounds. Everyone thinks I look great, but all I see is fat and rolls and I hate it. I’m getting rid of my old clothes, the size 2, 0, XS, S and I just want to cry. Trying on the clothes that used to fit loose that now won’t go past my shoulders is killing me. I think a lot about starving myself again, this time on purpose. But I know I shouldn’t. If I tell my husband he’ll just worry and I just needed to let this out.