I got pregnant at 16. Im 20 now but baby wouldn’t be born till im 21. Im in a diffrent situation than before. I honestly feel so ready to have another baby It’s something that I have wanted for a long time but i knew i wasn’t in a place to bring a child into this world with our finances. Well things like I said have changed, but I’m just so scared to have another baby because my first pregnancy was the worst. I had nobody by my side i was litterly humiliated. My son ended up coming early and had to stay in the nicu and As soon as we brought him home everyone hated me because I didn’t want visitors and they just came against my wishes because my MIL would just tell them that it’s OK and I literally spent no time with my child and I would just cry all the time because I’m the mom and I shouldn’t have to fight for my child. I tried so hard to breast-feed and everyone would just come over and be like oh I’ll feed him. so he would have to drink a bottle and honestly like it was just the worst time of my fucking life. Anyways whenever i went into labor they told me that I was most likely not gonna be able to have more kids or they were gonna come pre-term just like him so i have a high chance of a miscarriage. It honestly hurts my feelings how my family can be so supportive to other people who are pregnant but they were never supportive towards me. Even now everyone’s like oh you don’t need a kid or like I don’t know they just say stuff like your never gonna have another kid I guess they see it as a joke and I don’t. I want another kid but at the same time I’m so scared to try because I feel like if something happens to the baby or if I go through the situation that I went with my first I would loose it😭 i get depressed just at the thought of it. Whenever I was pregnant with my son I had issues with my placenta and my umbilical cord and I would cry every day because I felt guilty even though i knew it wasn’t my fault I still felt like it was. I just want to be able to experience pregnancy And be able to enjoy it and have a whole different experience this time. but I’m not sure if that’s gonna happen and it breaks my heart 😭