extreme stress rant

hi ok i need to hella hella hella vent because i might actually have a real mental health emergency on its way.

short background - my dad promised my s/o a wonderful job that would take care of our new family if we moved to Colorado.. so we made the move, and chose to try and stay with my mom in a 1 bedroom apt. :/ turns out the job was a lie and now we're stuck..

i am in the worst situation and no one is helping (i don't expect people to bend the world for me but the lack of support I've been getting is insane) just pointing out the obvious road blocks my s/o and i have and saying "you'll figure it out soon "

we are 100% broke. my s/o is BUSTING his ass 24/7 trying to work day labor jobs, keep my MOM and i fed, buying ALL of the household necessities, and trying to find a real job all at the same time. I am literally 23 days away from my due date and i just found out that the ONE item that i have for my son, is completely useless. our old neighbor gave us a bassinet WITHOUT LEGS, and idk bout you but i don't want my baby on the floor..

the only thing i have "ready" for him is clothes.

i cant nest at all because i have nothing and it is driving me insane. i cant set up a bassinet, my dog ate our pack of newborn diapers, his clothes are still in a box, my mom is so selfish and mentally unstable, not to mention i found out AFTER we moved that shes also using drugs. im not sure how much longer i can mentally handle it.. but we have no where to move because we don't have the money to pay for a down payment on a place. Oh and my insurance isn't covered in Idaho so i'm also going to have to file medical bankruptcy after he's born..

idk what she spends her monthly money on but she's completely broke and has been 100% using my s/o and i for EVERYTHING.

and because of that i cant buy ANYTHING for myself, or my son. and no one in my family will help either.

i have no carseat- i wont even be able to leave the fucking hospital without one, and to get a decent "cheap" carseat will be like $80

a bassinet that isnt on the floor is the same if not more expensive.

also sheets

i don't have any aftercare stuff for myself, no clothes for the hospital or after.

i have 1 pair of leggings now because my other pairs went missing????????

IM EATING ONE MEAL A DAY

AT 8 MONTHS PREGNANT

Not to mention all the recent bullshit she put my s/o and i through by trying to kick us out, sleeping in her car during a snowstorm, and threatening suicide.

its a miracle i havent gone into labor yet because im losing my mind and in so unbelievably stressed.

thank you for reading, if you did and letting me rant... i just have no one.