Depression and anxiety in full force 😩

Hello ladies, may be a sensitive subject so please do not be rude. I’m just stuck right now and have no one to turn to.

So a little back story here. I’ve had severe anxiety and depression that go along with my BPD (borderline personality disorder) since I was a kid due to the trauma I went through in my childhood and instead of making myself a zombie taking multiple medications I found that medical marijuana is what helped me stabilize myself the most without completely changing who I am as a person.. It is both medically and recreationally legal where I live but my doctors feel that it is a danger to my baby so of course I quit. Now not being on an medications and of course not being able to smoke my anxiety and depression are in full swing and with the multitude of hormones, my significant other is just completely useless and unhelpful. I work a full time job, he does not. I come home and cook dinner every night, I clean out house and do our laundry and grocery shop and I’m so frustrated that when I ask him for even the slightest bit of help he acts like I’m overreacting and being a bitch. I’m stressed because we still have been unable to find a bigger house for the baby and us, and with his little to no income when I have to take maternity leave I have no idea how we’re going to get by. He’s so insensitive to the situation, constantly smoking in front of me and when I have a little bit of a breakdown he just tells me god you need to calm down go smoke a joint or something, knowing that I absolutely can not or I would. I’m just so very frustrated, all of my friends have since turned their backs on me because I can’t smoke or drink with them and I’m just completely at my breaking point. It kills me to know that in just 100 short days or less I have to bring my beautiful little girl into this toxicity and small place. Just needed to vent. Sorry for the length and thanks for listening 😩😭😭😞