My mum

My mum was diagnosed with ospheagus cancer just before Christmas. It's been fine up until now and she has been admitted into hospital because she has a low weight and low blood count. She has been put onto feeding tubes. I just wanna crawl into a ball and cry but I just cant seem to find the emotions to let it all out. It's making me start to question myself to why I cant. I wanna make plans with people but when I do they just annoy me and I cant be bothered with them after 5 minutes. Is there something wrong with me?