1 year post miscarriage

I don’t know how to feel lately I’ve been feeling extremely depressed and irritable. I keep trying to convince myself to just move on and not let these feelings consume me but it’s become more and more difficult. I don’t know how to feel or act and I cannot control my emotions I feel lost and empty and I just want the feeling to be gone. Like really really gone. I need help I need support I want to yell it and talk about it but I can’t everyone doesn’t get it they are over it it’s been so long why bring up the past why can’t I just move on!!??