Alright ladies I’m looking for some words or encouragement and or advise. My daughter is 16 months and I’ve stayed home with her since the day she was born. I feel like I enjoyed it at first but here lately I haven’t felt like I’ve enjoyed it so much anymore. It’s all I ever dreamed of doing and here I’m living my dream and feel lost, lonely, secluded etc...I never knew some of the stuff it entailed. It doesn’t help that I don’t have ANY friends so we hardly go anywhere during the week. I’m trying to get out more but it’s hard for me. Idk if I’m dealing with slight depression or what but just lately I’ve really been struggling ALOT. I’ve just felt down lately and don’t seem to feel happy. It’s winter here so it doesn’t help that we don’t get outside much either. Maybe it’s because my daughter is a lot more work than she was before, idk all I know is that I’m finding myself questioning staying home. Am I doing the right thing? Do I need to send her somewhere a few days a week for my sanity etc...? I think it would just kill me to send her somewhere idk if I could do it. I’ve worked in several daycares and have witnessed what goes on and I just don’t know if I want her around that type of environment. And unfortunately I don’t really have anyone that could watch her. So I feel stuck, stuck in the daily routine, stuck just being a mom and nothing else...just stuck...I hope others can relate and help me out because today was one of the worst days I’ve had, I just laid on the couch all day (I was tired though because my daughter was up 5 times last night and then was up for the day at 5:30) and watched her play, I felt absolutely lazy, felt like a bad mom, and had absolutely NO motivation at all to do anything! It doesn’t help that I’m pregnant again so my energy level isn’t where it was and tiredness but I was feeling so much better until this week. This week I’ve just been down in the dumps. Can anyone else relate? If so how do you get through your day doing the same thing with no one to talk to? I’m just really struggling guys! 😞😩