My NIPT test done at 10 weeks was lowest possible risk

10 weeks:

1/10000 with a 99.99% accuracy rate. 8% fetal fraction. All good.

20 week scan:

Everything looks fantastic, except 2 small choroid plexus cysts (not worried my son had these)

23 week Maternal Fetal Ultrasound:

Went in for bleeding, turned out to be placenta, baby is fine. Ultrasound picks up a possible small ventricular septal defect on heart. Doc assured me that these are usually nothing no not caught. May patch up before birth, may not. Nothing to be too alarmed with. Still I start to worry about Down Syndrome, as it is a “soft marker” Doc tells me the echocardiogram is perfect and she measuring perfect. Cysts are gone.

25 week follow up scan with MFM doc:

Vsd hasn’t closed yet, but it’s super small. Then informs me there is a small echo genic focus on her heart too. Also, another soft marker. He doesn’t seem concerned, but at this point I’m freaking out! “So she has 3 soft markers??” I say. He tells me with my NIPT results and the fact that everything else looks great, I should relax. I asked him if I should do an amniocentesis, he says no and it’s not like at 25 weeks I can do anything about it anyways. Wtf!??!!

Look, husband and I made a decision at 8 weeks that if the test came back positive, we would terminate. I’m literally pacing the floor and googling Down syndrome like 50 times a day! I keep looking at her ultrasound photo and instead of going how adorable is she? I keep questioning if she looks “Downs”. Wth!!? This is most anxious I’ve ever been in my life. Someone please help me cope.