Would you consider this sexual assault? How do I bring myself to grow and become strong again when I can’t afford therapy?

Abby

Recently I started stripping. On my first night a man grabbed me as I walked past him pulled my underwear aside and started touching me telling me how pretty my “pussy lips” are. I feel so dirty and gross for letting this guy touch me and my anxiety has shot through the roof. I’ve had some really bad sexual trauma in the past which I’m sure is why my anxiety is spiking. Am I over reacting? How do I feel better? Any advice is welcome.